Entry 1 -Progress On My Journey

The past couple weeks have been quite the rollercoaster for me. But that is usually the case when you decide to put God first. The enemy sees that, and gets threatened and tries to knock you down. But because I had the past month preparing me without me realizing it, I was prepared this time for my stumble. I was knocked down hard, emotionally. As dramatic as this sounds, my heart was shattered. I went through alot of emotional pain due to many negative events taking place in my life all at the same time.

But as time passed by, I am now pretty content with how things are taking its course. At first I was upset, because what had happend was sudden and had no real explanation as to why it happened. BUT after taking a step back to analyze the situation, I realized what a blessing the past month has been.

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

If I am to be completely honest with you guys though, at first I couldn't see the good in what had happened to me. I was so blinded by the situation that I didn't take a step back to look at the bigger picture.

Unlike my usual instinct to allow myself to get upset about everything that was going on, I decided to do something different. I put full trust in God and sought to him for comfort. At first, that is not what my reaction was to do. But within about 2 days of dealing with everything and getting overwhelmed by it. I decided to say, "Ya know what? God has been so good to me for the past couple months and has been changing me throughout my current spritual season, its time to stop being scared and stop being skeptical, and just go full out and trust in him. "

Proverbs 11:28 "Those who trust in themselves are fools, but those who walk in wisdom are kept safe."

So in conclusion to how I've been doing, I have actually advanced by a lot in my spiritual level and grew so much within past couple months and definitely the past couple weeks/days. All it took was to literally just stop procrastinating when it comes to trusting God, and just actually fully do it. Im not saying it's easy at all, but God is a good God and knows our intentions, and all you really have to do is CONSISTENTLY pray about it and ask for his guidance,wisdom and strength; since we can't do it on our own. Then as obstacles / trials come your way, you'll be able to overcome them a bit easier because you now have trust in God. Unlike before, when you tried to use your own strength and understanding.

Don't be foolish, don't try to overcome things on your own. Sorry to break it to you, but you won't be able to survive for long if you try to do that. You'll become so tired and then eventually itll be so much on your shoulders that you break down and become depressed and nothing good comes of that. Trying to overcome depression is alot harder then trying to overcome what ever trial you are facing now. Depression is a mental game that is hard to overcome. Dont make things harder for you then it has to be. It doesnt have to be that way, you dont have to struggle more then you already are.

To be 100% real with you guys, I wasnt someone that thought I could ever put full trust in God. I always turned to people and materialistic things to "help" me. Which never ended the way it shouldve. Eventually those problems that I thought I solved, resurfaces and its usually bigger then it was before. But with God, im so serious and genuine when I say this, if youre willing to go through the process of learning to trust God, then youre going to realize that you really do need God.

Its not easy, thats for sure. Especially if you were like me and went from being a "christian" that went with the motions and routines of what christians do just so others think youre all good. That wont get you far. Going from that to actually devoting/sacrificing time for God is what propels you in life.

Results wont seem obvious at first, but within a month, if you take a step back and genuinely analyze your life and start to see "problems" as "lessons" then you'll have a mini breakthrough and from there youll start to grow faster in your relationship with Christ.